I don't know why I feel like I need to cut back...could be the control issue. As long as I am in control of how often we see each other than there is more security in knowing that I want be "left". I feel like I am in a fairly good place emotionally (except for this) and that somehow a demonstration of my progress requires less frequent visits just to know I can do it. I know that sounds kind of screwed up but it is how I think. I'm also scared that one day my insurance is going to run out and then I will be forced into less frequent visits. I do worry about that. Also my therapist is going to retire in about two years and I guess I'm trying to get ready for that possibility also. Man until you asked the question I had not given it much thought but it does seem like something I feel like I have to do instead of something I want to do. I will have to consider is some more and maybe talk about it with my therapist. I think I can deal with not seeing him but every two weeks...that's not the issue, the issues is that is signifies "endings" and I'm not very good at those. Thanks for your insights and I will give them serious thought.