Hi Walker, sorry you're feeling so very lonely. This is certainly a safe place to share your feelings. Contributing to someone else's threads may be a good way to build your confidence, as you can see you don't even need to use words to encourage someone. Fuzzybear does a lot of encouraging and seldom uses words.
I really hope you can build a sense of belonging here and find other like minded people.
If you like gaming, that forum might be a good place to meet people.