T said he will hunt me down if i dont come to group on saturday. i wanted to say you dont know where i live !!! but i didnt. because i will go to group. and feel weird. and sit there. and look like a freak. i hate feeling like people are watching me and staring at me. thats part of it. also i dont feel like i care about anyone in the group. and they obviously care about each other. so i feel even more like a freak bc of that. T says i should talk about that in group. UM NO!!!! kinda wish i hadnt of started it again. i asked T the day before group last week if he would be disappointed if i didnt show up. he said of course i will but its your choice. i know its my choice but T thinks it will be good for me and i trust him and his opinion so i am going to stick it out, even tho i hate it right now