Hi Nicole, it's hard having so many changes of emotions. Sadly a lot of people live with this sort of turbulence and I'm sorry you're going through it. From what you've said, it sounds as if it is a good idea to continue therapy and medication may help you to feel more stable while you work towards a way forward. I'm glad you think you will go back to your therapist. Sending as much encouragement as I can, be kind to yourself, you deserve it.