I'm so desperate to talk to you. I'm worried that I effed up with my friend. I went by the grocery store to see if you were there shopping but I didn't see your car. It's probably for the best. I really feel so confused about things. How did I get myself here? I know I'm not doing well because I thought about "it" today as a solution. Also I got that dopey feeling I get when I am feeling overwhelmed and out of it. Unreal feeling.