You have such an amazing username - something inside of you inspired you to choose so empowering a handle. Something inside you, on some level, is well and biding it's time until you can bring it to the forefront. You just have to keep proudly persevering until you get it to show. But, it's definitely in there.

I know that there are times - days - when you just feel like "Why the hell bother?" But you are NOT worthless. And you are among many who totally understand your cares and woes.

When it's gets to be too much, check in with yourself. Are you hydrated? Hungry? Well-rested? Have you been inside for too long and need to go out and let the sun warm your face? Maybe you need to watch a funny show or movie? Call an understanding person in your life? Listen to music that moves you in a positive way?

A lot of times you have to change the "scene" in some form or fashion before you can change the emotion.

I hope you feel better soon. ((((((proudly persevering)))))