I am just discovering that I might have AvPD so I haven't really analyzed that aspect of myself yet. But if I had to think about it, I think I'm drawn to the exact opposite. I'm fascinated by confident people. I envy them. They embody things I wish that I was. I never really speak to anybody though unless they speak to me first especially people who are loud and boisterous. I sit there hoping this person will speak to me and reach out to me and then they will see that I am not a quiet shy girl with nothing to say, I'm just too afraid to say it. And when I do get attention from those types, all I can think is "don't blow it! Don't say something stupid" which I inevitably do. And I keep waiting and waiting for them to hate me and reject me. And when they talk to me once but not again, I'm convinced I did something wrong.

Quiet and reserved people kind of scare me. I might be more likely to approach and say "hi" to a quieter person but I can't carry on conversation. It gets awkward.