I'm so terrified of the withdrawals I know are coming. I'm just sitting here, on the verge of tears, because withdrawals are so horrible. On top of having seizures. I can literally die. I hate my doctor for putting me on this without telling me it was addictive and for putting me on 8mg a day. I didn't know I was on a really high dosage until like 2 years after being on it, going to the hospital and the doctor refusing to give me more than .5 every 6 hours (as if anxiety waits.) and he refused to give me anything more. That was the first time I went into (not full blown) withdrawals. They doctor and nurses didn't even believe me.

I don't know what to do.