I'm intimidating and confrontational a lot in my, I won't start drama or even make a notion of my true emotions. I sometimes be passive aggressive and mainly assertive, but I keep to myself because I don't care.

I feel something today put a lot of real perspective on this. I think it feels good to tell people off when it's appropriate when you know you're not in the wrong and you know they aren't worth your time and energy that you have enough self confidence you are better than them.

I am saying this, because I have a lot of good things where I now got a second job, but it still remains. I'll always be single, because I choose it. I don't like sharing to some things, I like space. I hate this gross stuff guys do and girls do that is soooo messed up to me.

I feel people damaged my trust so much it's more sabotaged me in wanting me to work for a relationship at some points, because I look it this way. You say you are and I like you or not. If not, I won't be afraid to tell you off or even hurt your feelings I feel treaded on.

I do be mindful case by case basis, but there are situations you just have to be blunt no matter how hurtful it is. I can't deal with this crap anymore. I don't look for people, almost everyone grosses me out. I really feel relationships lost all it's luster and feel just gross.

Like it's like it all feels so superficial the whole thing most of the time, not just the people I'm around it's like it's indoctrinated most people just ******** that they took it seriously, but really are hypocrites drop when waves get rocky or one person does when they find something better.

I just don't get why people don't just casually hang out and not go into a relationship. Why do I have to go all or nothing attitude. That what grosses me out.

I couldn't believe today a 14 year old is talking about getting weed from her bf and having sex with him being explicit. Acting like shes' cool and people who do that no matter what age, but especially kids at her age beyond make me mad. They are the reason why I hate people who are ignorant.

I like smarts, I get turned off faster to someone who says something stupid, but isn't a nice person nor learns from their mistakes. I just don't tolerate it. I think it's why I feel I can't trust one person. They can't clean up their own room or their own self why would I feel I would rely on them for anything. You think their be more adults who are independent and efficient, but I know realistically they are in my boat too and are trying to better themselves like I am which is ok, but I think that's what got me.

I'll never promise people things I won't keep. I stopped that since high school 4 years ago.

I wish one day some woman would let me give me a chance to trust her or someone. I don't watch their phones I don't care what they do. They should be an adult and act like one, not play silly games.

That's what I brought up to my therapist. I don't like that, but I'm so glad I'm so straight forward and not get so blinded by looks or lack of character because she looks good.

That in turn I'm glad it offends some girls I'm glad it puts the ones I don't want to attract away, because you don't care so why should I.

I'm not mean, I just tell them the truth and not afraid. I was like that to authority figures too growing up. It's a thing I've done, because I felt injustice so badly from being accused in a wrong when I was the victim and all these people who say they are their for you including family drop like flies and give up on you.

That's why I don't trust one damn human. No one gave me chances growing up when I suffered why should I try to do something that's unrealistic.

When I meet a girl I like, I make no expectations. I don't force myself on them. I keep my comments to myself, unless they did something that out right offended me, but if they feel they need to call me out. I'm going to listen not fight it or talk back and I've done that it works fine.

It's just I won't say, "I will always be there for you etc." I will say it like this, "I'll be there when I can, but I can only do my best."

Yeah.