What ways can I improve my life?.. You are kidding, right? Well...hummmm I've suffered through toxic medication for over 30-years not one of which offers any relief anymore, 30-years of weekly psychologist appointments, 34-years of abstinence from drugs & alcohol, Neurofeedback, Reiki, Yoga, acupuncture, inpatient & outpatient psychiatric care, 30 HOURS of TMS, Electroconvulsant ECT treatments and....KETAMINE.... still, I struggle each day to simply exist. Currently, I have intensive outpatient treatment three days a week, psychotherapy weekly, psychiatric appointments monthly, evening groups on Tuesday AND A.A. Meetings. Oh and... I'm dealing with pancreatic cancer and Parkinson's.

So, what "ways do I improve my life?" The only way I see to "improve" my life at this point is to compassionately let death relieve me of my suffering. Your question insinuates that I have created this hell called depression and with a simple "choice" I can feel better? Please tell me... How DO I improve my life?