electroshock should be your ABSOLUTE last resort.
give the meds a chance. you will find the right combination.
remember it takes time for the meds to fully get into your system.
i always gave up when i found the right kind for various reasons; eg. side effects, feeling like my feelings were fraudulent, being on such a high dose that i couldn't even function as a human even though everything "stopped"... who wants to live like that?
anyway, like i said in an earlier post, it's all a learning process. don't give up or surrender to shock treatment before you have to.

for me, i looked at my "symptoms" in a different way. really, they're just annoying now. i get paranoid sometimes, but i am at a point in my journey through mental health where i can talk myself out of it. also i have some peers who i can run some of my thoughts by to check if they're realistic or not. it is important that you can find someone you trust and value their opinion for this kind of thing to work. also, who you truely believe has your best interest and wellness in mind. i find it hard to trust people, so i appreciate these people in my life.