I am rather new to the boards and guess I just need to vent and get opinions. This will be my 17th ECT treatment today and I honestly do not think they are working, but everyone keeps telling me to go and give it more time.

My psy. doc told me 2 sessions ago that I should have seen a difference by now so should probably quit BUT my after last ECT I had a great day, so now he says keep going.

I got home from it and made myself to housework and other things and I think that is what made me feel so good. By Saturday I had crashed again into a major depression. I have BP2 so pretty much dealing with the depression and no "highs". After he heard that then he decided I should keep going????

I asked him if he really though it was the ECT or me being proactive and trying some CBT on myself (which I should do everyday anyhow). I have been working very hard on changing my outlook on life and being more positive and even my husband says he thinks that is what is helping me and not the ECT. The rest of my family and doctors keep telling me to go.

Afraid to keep going, afraid to stop. There are some negative issues with it (memory loss, disorientation, etc.). I told them I would go a few more times.

Has anyone else gone for a large number of times with no positive outcome. How do you know when enough is enough?

I also take depakote (losing my hair and slightly over acceptable level (101) but psy. says that is ok), clonazepam and seroquel.

Thanks for listening.