Im not sure if this is the article, but this is excellent read- still working my way through:

Bipolar Disorder and “Borderline Personality Disorder”

What’s the difference?

Bipolar Disorder and ?Borderline Personality Disorder? | PsychEducation

And there is a very interesting case reference: https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog...sorder-part-ii

I related with this case for a variety of reasons :

I feel I meet criteria for BPD being that much of my mood swings are tied to relationships (past and present) but i can also get upset by: my weight, stress in life/ job, too much coffee alcohol anti-depressants, my appearance (i can be perfectionist), drivers or others on the road... etc..

However: i also have issues with:

Excess spending
Very high libido phases, exploring bi-sexuality especially when i am feeling 'up' or coffee-high (wonder if this is just normal for a girl in her mid-30s?)
sometimes I can wake up very early, unable to sleep until i force myself w/ pills (then i feel groggy for a bit but mostly alert and fuction fine next day).
Or- the reverse- i can't fall asleep, feel 'up' out of no-where (after being tired after dinner) and / or have arguments/ stay up very late, and wake up and function next day (though i am usually exhausted from extensive fighting...)
(not sure if it matters, when i was a little girl- I had insomnia - would stay up at night cleaning my room... and also in my 20's i had issues sleeping esp when stressed or hard-core dieting.. perhaps this is just coincidence...)

I have a history of drugs, alcohol, smoking, cutting, bulimia, re-creating my identity (drastic hair color changes, shaving part of my head, wanting to make drastic change in diet, job etc...)

I kind of have a hunch that my mother is BPD (as my therapist pointed out) and my dad is BP. It seems to be a trend on his side of the family....there are people talking about his mom (my grandmother) having it, as well as my dads sister - they all act really typically BP..

My mother seems to always be up and down depending on people, very negative most of the time.. while i am almost always optimistic (except when i am set off...). we used to fight based on how i made her 'feel' and we all had to tip toe around her. My dad, was almost abusive at time, would 'rage out'.. I tend to act like the 2 of them combined, so perhaps i have inherited both :/ ??