I don't know if you are in therapy, but this is the purpose of it: To be able to talk about those things and feel validated and not be judged or denied. Close family or friends might not understand where you are coming from. There is a concept called "the inner child". We carry our inner child throughout our lives, but the good new is there are things you can do to help heal yourself and bring comfort to the child you were. I can look up links to some articles for you if you want.

Remember, you are a survivor. The very fact that you can talk about it now is because you were stronger than you thought you were. Healing is a long process, but you can do it.