Kindergirl. It is completely normal how your feeling. My first long break from T, I emailed her a week before we were to resume and told her that I'm afraid to go back because I feel she has turned into some kind of monster whilst she's been away.

T replied that what I was feeling was it was monsterious that she wasn't there for me all those weeks and it will be scary to go back, but thats part of the work.

I wish I had something to say for you that would ease your suffering, but what you doing now is the right thing, writing aobut your pain!

Keep posting!