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I'm sorry I didn't reply sooner than this, please forgive me.
I don't know if what you are going through is paranoia or not. But it does sound to me like you definitely have something going on, what it's cause is, I don't know. I so wish you could find a T to help you with these issues hon. I really think you would benefit from having an outlet with a professional.
I know I'm not much help here and I'm sorry. Know that I care about you and I'm sending you strength and friendship.

J