hey t. good lord i was a mess today for a few minutes. had to have a meeting with my sup because i have not been myself lately at work and i was explaining to him that i'm just feeling so uncomfortable with the coaching stuff they have me doing. i tried to withdraw from the program but he talked me out of it for now. same old line 'we need you'. ugh! manipulation is right. i'll stick it out a little longer and hope they give me the promotion when it comes up again. if they don't, i've made up my mind, i'm quitting altogether and finding something else. hell i'm already looking anyway. t i really need to stop obsessing about whether you are here in town yet or not. jeez, i am pathetic. i'll try to stop thinking about it and just plan on calling you at the normal time on thursday, and be happily surprised if you get in touch first and say you're here and let's meet wherever. i guess this is sorta stressful on me too in a way, even though it's a good thing you moving back here, it's still stressful somehow changing back to in person. so that's a 3rd stresser added to the other 2 (the work stuff and the house-buying-moving). I guess I can look at it this way. I'm getting through it w/out texting, emailing, or calling you. Not very well, but I am.....