My T was curious as to why I want to know these answers, ask so many questions, and it doesn't stop. That's just my nature and helped me out as a very successful investigator. We are all investigators to an extent though. My main reason for wanting to know is to find out how to deal with it myself. You can't fight or help something you can't identify. Also, I want to know that what she is telling me is correct, I didn't tell her that though Maybe in time I will trust what she says. In some of the reading I think I have found that mental grounding doesn't work for me because I can't focus that long on something. That a physical grounding object would work better most likely, like a rock or something. I like and collect rocks, that's why I said a rock. I want to help myself between sessions and the T and I seem to be on the same page on subjects we talk about. CPTSD is a total, hot mess no doubt, thank you for understanding.