As someone who can't even think of going through an interview without panicking, I understand the fright. I'm going to school this fall, and I want to puke every time I think about it. It def doesn't help when I talk to my husband or dad who pelt me with what ifs. Try to ignore her. You know you are trying very hard. I used to be terrified of driving, but with short trip practice, I can now take my daughter to school all the way to the other side of the city. Give yourself some credit! At least you're putting in the apps and are willing to walk to get there!