I cry quite frequently in front of my T--to the point of really sobbing a few times--and in front of my marriage counselor (so my H sees that too). I even cried for the first time recently in front of my p-doc. I think I first cried in front of each of them when I really started to trust them and felt like it was a safe space to cry and show my emotions. Otherwise, except for crying sometimes in front of my H, like if we have a fight, I tend to cry in private, especially if I'm alone in my car or in the living room by myself after H and daughter have gone to bed. And in the shower, too.

My mom was very much about hiding emotions away, to the point that I'd be like, "Oh, no," the first time I'd cry in front of someone I was dating, thinking that then they were going to end things with me. And once I cry in front of someone once, it's easier to do it again... And the time I cried when my former boss gave me an awful review--I was convinced I'd be fired on the spot for being so weak as to cry. I still worry about it--I mean, I've actually apologized to both T and MC for crying before (like if I was sobbing and couldn't get the words out). I mean, there's a reason they have the tissues sitting there...