I've been having so much anxiety lately. But it's still not as bad as last semester.

Other than that, my mental health has been excellent. I took a bunch of quizzes here on PC and scored super low (well, except for the mania quiz but I'm not manic, just excited about my new job).

I've got my first 12 hour night shift tonight. I'm actually quite worried about it. I'm pretty sure it is going to be hellish...

But I can just see my therapist challenging me, telling me that if I see it as being destined to be painful, I will make it painful.

I talked to an old friend on Skype last night. We were close in high school, but then she started losing interest in me. Well, after tonight I feel ready to let her go. She is kind of an elitist b****. She recently broke up with her boyfriend and said that it was hard to lose someone who you knew cared about you. So I, being the warm and supportive person I am, gently reminded her that she had lots of people who cared about her. She got really angry and said something about it not being the same because she needs to be cared for by someone she likes! She actually said that. So she basically admitted that she doesn't like me very much anymore...and it is not the romance that she needs. She told me that if she had a roommate she liked that cared for her, it would be enough. I don't need that in my life.