I've felt like this most of my life. Like a loser, a fat ugly girl that no one likes and no one wants to deal with. Maybe it was being fired by my pdoc a couple days ago that is triggering me now, but I even question if my therapist "likes" talking to me for $100 an hour. It's frustrating to feel like I cant even pay someone to want to be around me. What is there to live for if nothing wants me in this world? How can I talk about it? i.e. how can I accuse and confront someone about disliking me and not be even more disliked? It seems like a vicious inescapable circle.