I’m so stressed out.. I needed to talk to someone and you got elected….


I’ve gone to therapy twice now, and both times when we were talking about stuff that has me stressed out, problems with my DH came up. After talking about everything, I got the distinct impression from the therapist that he thinks I might not be happy ever if I am married to my DH…. I’m so confused….I love my DH, and I’m the one with depression, why does the therapist think I need to seriously consider what “consequences” there should be if my DH doesn’t take responsibility for stuff??? Last night and today I have been so upset that my stomach is churning and I feel sick…. Don’t get me wrong, I know that my DH and I have issues, what couple doesn’t? But to hear someone else say that I might not be happy or able to not be so miserable unless I think about being a single parent, makes me feel like I’m drowning. When I said til death do us part, I meant it. How can this guy think that after talking with me twice for an hour each time?


The other thing the therapist told me I need to do is take some time for myself, and I agreed to take an hour or two on Saturday and go to the Y or go for a walk. Then I get home and tell my DH that he is supposed to go with me to my next session, and ask him if there’s anything I can do to make things better, and my DH says he wants me to spend more time with him and the girls. Now my head is freaking spinning - - - do I take time for myself, or do I spend more time with him and the girls? When he is home, we are together, on the weekends, we are together, I take care of the girls when he is at work, but apparently I need to spend more time with them…. Yet I agreed to spend time alone………….


Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!


Will you hold my hand through this? I don’t expect you to have any answers, but I just need someone to listen to me.


I gotta go before I start bawling at my desk.