I'm sorry you feel like this. I know this feeling. When I was in intensive group therapy, after a few months I felt like the T's there didn't cared about me. (Some things happened there that caused that feeling.) I thought 'even someone who gets paid to talk to me, who gets paid to try to help me, even they don't care. If someone who gets paid doesn't want to be around me, why would anyone else''.
2-3 months ago I talked to my current T about this.
And last week I told her that I was afraid that she doesn't like me, that she thinks I'm difficult and annoying.
It was hard to tell her. These thoughts have more to do with my self esteem, not with how she treat me. I'm still questioning her. I don't get why she wouldn't dislike me.
I suggest you talk to your T about it. Don't say it like you accuse your T, but say how you feel. Maybe your T does ''like'' having you as a client, but is it you that feels like T doesn't because of what happened with pdoc and maybe you had more experiences like that in the past.