i miss you and i want to talk to you but i don't want to miss you and i don't want to want to talk to you. what am i supposed to do with that?! well i know what my stressed-out head wants to do, mah stressed out head wants to 'forget' to call you thursday. like that would solve anything. but damn it all, i feel a tremendous amount of distance between us and have felt it all week even though last i heard, you were going to be here in town by yesterday. you might as well be on the moon, the way i've felt all week. i hate the way this feels.