How, exactly, were you not allowed to develop social skills?

How exactly were you bullied?

How are people STILL actually treating you, presently. What actions and words have been said and done to you. Everything you post is always just your perceptions and trying to mind-read them.

There have been nothing concrete, at all, to justify the attitude that you have towards everyone. If you were to give one, actual, concrete thing... I'm sure you would have a lot more sympathy and understanding passed your way from people here.

A lot of us have been treated badly. And we still develop social skills, and don't spend all of our time blaming others - even when there is some seriously major people to blame!

I'll give you some examples from my own life that could lead me to have such a negative outlook. I am going to PM it to you because they are VERY easily identifiable to me.

----- PM sent with examples----

So, Shadix... with all of those examples I've given you? That's just the tip of the iceburg and examples that popped into my head very fast. And there's no physical or sexual abuse involved.

I just gave them to you as actual, concrete, examples of things that could lead to my behavior and trouble with social skills. Have they impacted me? Oh yes, of course they have. But with a lot of stubbornness I've been able to improve, and I keep going. I always keep going, even when I really, really, really want to give up on humanity.

And you know what? Guess what my perspective on people are? I still think that people are good, and I still keep taking risks. I treat every new person as if they're good, bbecause they've never hurt me. They don't deserve to have me treat and judge them as if they are the people from my past.

I refuse to place all the blame on the past - even though I don't have a SINGLE family member who actually showed any affection for me as a child. Not a single one. Is that unfair? Yes, it sure is. No one deserves to feel like that. Want to know what I did about it? I decided that as a teacher, I would openly let my students know that I love them, and am there for them. I decided that instead of being bitter (sometimes I am, I'm not perfect!!) that I would use my pain to try to help others not feel that same pain.

It's also why I keep replying to you even if you don't seem to really listen or want to change. Because I hope that some tiny part will sink in, and hope so much that you'll be able to start healing and move forward.