We do have health care services, but I just ended up in a bad situation. Psychiatrists are covered by our health care plan, whereas therapists/counsellors/psychologists are not, and I just don't have the money to see one of them. Usually you can get a referral from your GP to a specialist, like a psychiatrist, within 6 months to a year, but I didn't have a GP for over a year (that was a nightmare on it's own trying to find) and then when I found one, she was new, so didn't know anyone to refer me to.

I finally got a referral to this psychiatrist from one of the doctors who runs a group I attend sometimes (she is friends with this psychiatrist, and knew she was opening up a private practice, so was able to get me in even though she probably shouldn't have) so this was like a rare and amazing opportunity...plus the fact that I really like her is even better. So I'm just worried about what will happen if I lose this, and don't have anything else, you know?

I think I'm scared because I'm not doing well right now, and it's pretty negatively impacting things like health, relationships, work, etc. And I'm worried that if I am not able to find help soon I might end up in a bad place. But I don't want to tell this new doctor that because I don't want to seem desperate, or put pressure on her or anything, because I'm really not that kind of person!