Hi,
I just wanted to say I am sorry for what you are going through. I too can have times I obsess and worry I will die etc. and it is no fun. Did you know that the biggest time for break-ins is between 8am and 5pm?? True statistic...most burglars assume people are at work and so they break in at that time. Have you thought of putting an alarm system in? You can even buy window and door alarms cheap at the hardware store....maybe that would help you to feel safe. Try to put positive thoughts in...and maybe re-word your thinking. I know it is HARD....I struggle myself but I find the more positive calm thoughts I can put in the better I feel. I too am terrified of pills and have had many sleepless nights. I have to get a medical procedure done soon and I am terrified I will die!! What minds we have. Let us both know the odds are in our favor that we will be ok. If only we can find a way to make that thought stick!! Good luck to you.