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Aug 16, 2015, 10:38 AM
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Member Since: Nov 2002
Location: Mid World
Posts: 18,089
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I'm so sick of hearing myself whine, yet I need to.
I'm feeling completely overwhelmed today. The pain isn't that bad, it's that I'm tired of hurting all day every day. On second thought, maybe it is that bad. It woke me up during the night last night.
It took me hard work to learn to focus on the positives in life and on what I accomplished instead of what I should have gotten done. I'm slipping into only seeing what isn't getting down instead of what I am accomplishing.
I told myself I get to take today to rest. I know my body needs it. I'm right on the edge of crashing and burning. If I don't rest my body will see to that I'm forced to rest. Still I sit here looking at everything that's not getting done and feeling crappy about it.
I said before that I haven't been posting much because I didn't think I could be supportive. This morning I thought I was ready to start replying to people. I decided that I wasn't ready when I found myself thinking "oh get over yourself!"
Gawd almighty I want a break. A break from having to medicate the horse. A break from dealing with the dog who is misbehaving because he doesn't think he is getting his share of my attention. I wish the brownies would come in and clean this pig pen of a house. A break from hurting. Heck, a break from living inside my own head! I'm not very good company right now.
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