Hey Indigo,

Sorry you are having such a tough time right now. Sounds like you are just overwhelmed with lots of things in your life. It can take a while to get a new job and there can be all sorts of reasons you haven't found the right one yet. Just try to take a positive spin on it, that the right one will come around and that's why you haven't found a new one yet.

You know, it's okay to be having a hard time. I feel like you're making yourself even worse because you feel bad that you're struggling. Struggling is natural. We're all on here dealing with difficult emotional issues and struggle is going to happen. But think of this: you know what you want, you are actively working on getting there, you're aware of the issues you're struggling with, and you are trying to make change. That so many positive things!!! Try not to be so hard on yourself and instead pat yourself on the back. And you have this exciting trip to visit your family coming up! I know it's cliche but focus on these positive things. What also helps me is to do proactive things. So with your job search, maybe it's time to redesign your resume so it looks different. Maybe try doing an informational interview with the company (you can call to set these up without being in search of a job) so you can get to know the company. It's often quite respectable to be like "I'm really interested in your company and I'd like to know more about it in case there is a job opening in the future." Then they may remember you when an opportunity arises and you throw your hat in the ring.

You are very professional, sticking it out in a bad job, that's a great positive thing. Take pride in your professionalism and keep working it up, it'll pay off when you need your job reference for the next job.

You are not pathetic. It's a tough job market out there right now, but the right position will come along.

(((Hugs)))
Seesaw