Hi Nicoleresati,

Wow, you are feeling a lot of things right now or at least trying to stop yourself from feeling lots of things. I used to self harm too, and it's gratifying in the moment, but the scars I have all over my body and the relationships I've lost over it are not worth it. I hope you can try and abstain from that behavior for your own well-being.

Emotions are hard to deal with, especially when you feel them as strongly as you and I do (it sounds like your emotions are really intense, as are mine). I don't really have any advice for you. We all need people from time to time even if it's just to say, I know what you're going through, and that's all I'm saying to you right now.

I know how you feel. I know what you're going through. I've been there and sometimes I still go back there. I guess I could suggest seeing a psychiatrist and maybe seeing if you can get help through medications to get over this really hard time so you can make some progress, but that's all I'd suggest. I know some people don't like meds.

I hope you can start feeling better. You're not alone.

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