I think the problem might be that she put you on that med because you were treatment resistant. Benzo's were the only thing that helped, right? She needs to refer you, write a letter about your treatment resistance, and be willing to take calls from any future pdoc. What she is doing is just awful. You have a right to your medical records, and you need to do whatever she wants you to do to get a COMPLETE copy of your records so you can show it to potential pdocs. You are on an unusual treatment plan, so it makes sense that a pdoc who doesn't know you would not want to give you meds that they believe will cause you harm. But if you are treatment resistant, then they need to do whatever it takes to keep you as stable as possible. The problem is that if you are on your own trying to explain your situation, the average pdoc is just going to think you are drug-seeking. That former pdoc needs to write a letter, and you need your records.