....so much that I quit trying. Like going back to school, the idea just disappears into nothingness. Time passes, like years, then it's like I could of been done by now.

Even small ones like going to the lake, or a park. The "want to" changes. Things that I do are impulsive in nature, hardly ever thought out because things hardly ever go as planned.

Memory has a lot to do with this. It is so frustrating. Even desire changes. It's gotten to a point of being stagnant. Even when making a list, it's just so like not doable.

Somewhere, somehow we've lost co-hesion, direction, and drive.

Any suggestions?