So many people know exactly how you are feeling. I think the most compassionate people are the ones who have been through it. You are not alone. You need to see a doctor, parent, friend, teacher. If friends aren't around when you are feeling like this they are not friends. You will find some true ones. It does get easier I know you don't feel like it, but it does hang in there. In the mean time try and talk to someone who can help