I was always a weird kid. At three I wanted my mom to stab me with a knife and kill me because I didn't want to live. I would easily go from happy to sad to irritated as a kid, but it went into a bad depression from 11-14 (also an early developer, getting my period at 11) on and off, then had a hypo manic episode. Then went through a manic episode before my 18th birthday. Now I'm diagnosed with Bipolar and PTSD, and am on meds.