Anyone ever feel like this? I'm not usually a jealous girl...but this overstepped some major boundaries for me. It is highlighting issues I've managed to keep in check for YEARS. I don't want to look in mirrors. I've been losing my appetite and have gone back to punching walls...I used to punch walls until my knuckles bruised/bled...and now I'm finding comfort there again when the rage comes...ugh. I'm so confused about how I feel about me, my life, my husband, everything...

Deal with those issues that you've stuffed. Get a therapist ASAP and deal. If you feel that your husband could go with you, after a time, take him so that he will understand what this brings up. good luck, love, pat