Ryan,
Thank you for writing what you did. I was blown away by the truth that you've arrived at for yourself. It sounds like it's taken a lot of courage to feel all of the painful feelings that you have to go through to get to the place of self-love. you've given me hope. I was writing in the relationship forum when I woke up this morning with the realization that i have a ways to go in loving myself and letting go of the self-hatred, the guilt and anger. I know that this is where i need to be right now. If being in this forum has helped you to start to love and forgive yourself, and to live free, then I'll hang around for awhile. Thanks Ryan.