I am finding it hard to trust my psychologist i want to talk to someone about how i am feeling but i cant help feeling like the more I tell him the more danger i am putting myself in. I feel like it is a trap like he is waiting for me to slip up or for me to tell him something that he can use i dont trust my family right now either like if i dont play along with their game they will all hurt me. I am tired and i want to scream because i feel like something is ripping and tearing inside me and i cant make it stop i feel like crying a lot too and i keep having panic attacks and I keep forgetting what day it is and i cant remember what happened yesterday and i keep being late to school and my room is a mess and i dont know i am sorry.