Enigmatic,
I just had the courage to visit this forum and i read your post. Somehow I've come to believe that when painful things like this just come up out of nowhere, it's like the inner you is saying, "I think that we are strong enough to deal with this now. it's time to start healing." It never feels that way, but the fact that you are talking about it and not ignoring it shows that you really are strong enough now. If you've accomplished so much in your young life (congrads by the way) with this pain buried so deep, how much more does life hold for you as you begin your journey of healing.
I still have a lot of healing to do in the area of sexual abuse,but in other areas of healing I have found it possible to do serious healing work with a therapist and still do well in other areas of my life, many times even better. Someone mentioned a rape crisis center. The one in my city has free therapy available. And they really know their stuff. Get help for the little girl inside of you. If you do, you will, like many others have said, avoid so many years of running from pain.
I wish you well.
Dorsey