There's been a lot of horse drama (some of it in another post) in my life lately and much of it has nothing to do with my horse.

Back in Feb/March I got a job at the barn where I was boarding him.

The barn is owned by a non-profit which provides Therapeutic Riding to persons with disabilities. It is a nice idea and does a lot of good, but it is run by a conniving and dishonest person who seems to have no feelings or ability for compassion.

When I interviewed for the job I told them that I am Bipolar and have GAD, and that nights are very difficult for me. My husband is a shift worker and our schedule is all over the map.

Also, for the past couple of years, I seem to have a great deal of difficulty waking up in the mornings.

During this time of not being able to get up, there have been med changes. They included increases in Seroquel, and Lamotrigine as well as the addition of Lithium. It is only looking back that I realized this... I was reading a thread on here and realized that my problems with mornings has been recent, and could be med related. I used to be able to get up in the mornings and do things...

Anyway, the idea of letting someone down or being late or not keeping a commitment causes me a great deal of anxiety and I often can't sleep and have near panic attacks the night before I have to get up early.

I was forthcoming about this in my interview and told them I wanted the afternoon shifts. She said she needed me to do one morning a week as a gesture, to demonstrate that I could be there to fill in in case of an emergency.

I agreed, thinking that if I went one night a week without sleep it would be worth it to have the job. So I started and she arbitrarily changed our agreement and scheduled me for two mornings back to back. So I'd do the night, then the next two mornings.

I did it for a couple of weeks then ended up nearly having a panic attack and going an entire weekend with no sleep. I was a write off till the next Thursday and had to start all over the next day. I worked my night shift and then missed the next morning after I had a meltdown after being up all night. I let my co-worker down by leaving her with all of the work and I felt terrible about it.

I told her the mornings weren't working. She sent me an email telling me to write a letter of resignation. I wrote back that I did not want to resign, and wanted to keep the one night shift, then pick of other night shifts as they became available or fill in for people on holidays.

While this made sense to all of the other employees (who all wanted me to stay) she said they were too small an organization to have somone work either mornings or nights, or to have someone who only works once a week.

This is not true. There is another employee there who only works mornings and has only ever worked mornings. She is not available nor required to ever work an evening shift. The woman who was my replacement was only working evenings. I found out that this changed after a while but initially she was hired to work only the evening that I wanted to work.

To add insult to injury, she told me I was welcome to come in and work my shift on the Friday as a volunteer, alongside the person who only works once a month.

As for not being able to have someone working only one shift a week... It has happened before there and in fact they have one employee who has been working there for years and who only works once or twice a month.

So it was just with me that these things were issues. The shift I wanted to keep was Friday night shift that no one else wanted and they had trouble filling.

I called the Human Rights Clinic and they advised me to file a complaint with the tribunal. They feel I have a strong enough case to file a formal complaint and they provide legal advise.

The one complaint would be for failure to Accommodate. There was absolutely no good reason (that anyone who worked there could see) that she couldn't have easily accommodated me. And she made a particular point of not accommodating me even while was actually detrimental to them. The fact that they couldn't even find anyone to work the shift I wanted to keep and had no one to cover off for people going off sick or on holidays.

The other part of our Human Rights Code says that you are not allowed to pay a disabled person less than someone who is not disabled for doing the same job. She took my shift and gave it to someone who worked less than I did and who doesn't know anything at all about horses, and then told me I could come and volunteer with the person she was paying to do the job she just took away from me for no good reason.

My quandary is this:

The injustice of the situation makes me want to see them called to account. Especially since they are committing Human Rights violations against disabled persons while being a service provider to the disabled. I feel some moral responsibility to call them to account as I'm sure they will do this sort of thing again if they think they can get away with it.

but....

Do I put myself through it. I haven't done anything yet because it threw me into a depression so bad that it almost brought me to crisis. I had a horrible meltdown at one point, was unable to leave the house for much of it and have been so, so, depressed and filled with failure and self loathing. Do I dredge all this up when I'm in a happier place with my horse and with a new job at a new barn with a new start.

And I'm not going to lie. A petty part of me is just p*ssed off and wants revenge.

I also feel so ashamed that they hurt me and part of me wants to stand up for myself.

What do you think I should do? Let it go and move on? Or file a complaint?