I really need advice on my situation right now. 3 months ago my ex of 5 years and I broke up. He has often broke up with me, but always comes back in the end. I am now in a new, healthy relationship but it's hard for me not to go back to my ex. I am very much in love with my ex; I adore him, he's funny, we have similar hobbies and the hobbies he has that are separate are ones I like (but just don't participate in). Even through the years, I have still had infatuation with him as well as attachment. We have major problems though. He is very insecure, specifically about boys, which leads to alot of conflict and frustration. This insecurity has led me to not always be 100% honest which has further increased insecurity and lack of trusting; it is just hard for me to openly talk with him without grudges being held or his feelings being hurt. He also criticizes me; mainly my hobbies, my past and lack of exercise. And the biggest problem of all is him breaking up with me when things get tough. He has told me he realizes he's treated me poorly and really wants to change. He has bought books and agrees to go to counseling. I am hesistant to take a chance and lose him again. My current boyfriend is great; he's sweet, respects me, is very understanding and i can talk to him about everything. We have almost all the same interests and beliefs. While he has great qualities he is also a procrastinator to the max, is a bit clingy and isn't very observant; these all rub me the wrong way, but I also have noticed my infatuation for him has plummeted. We have only dated for 2 months, so it seems strange for me to not feel infatuated. I'm not sure if it's because we moved very fast/ I'm still in love with my / I'm just not that into him. Any opinions and advice is welcomed. Should I give my ex a chance? Is my current partner the right choice? Thank you
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