Normally I would say my meds have the same affect on me as they do for you - comfortably wild. I think the issue for me is that, one of my indiscretions is a very good friend who has regular contact with me. Do you think that when we are in a manic state that we must be a lot of 'fun'? Or is it that we are perceived as easy targets? Because this particular friend seems to like to 'restart' things every year or so even though his wife and my husband are aware that lines have been crossed. I always feel used afterwards and that bothers me because I feel like I am victimizing myself which I feel is excusing an inexcusable behaviour.