So, here is what I wanted to say about how I think it gets easier...

I had the dx of ADD around the age of 7-8 and it was lot because I wouldn't sit still in class in 1st grade. My mom put me into a few sports growing up like Softball and the real reason it wasn't a good fit was I would stand out in the outfield playing with the dirt, waving at other people and just plan not focused on what was going on, same with soccer.

Once I got medicated I'm not sure how well it worked. I was doing better in school I mean my parents held me back a year after 1st grade because they thought I "could do better" I had a D in 1st grade. I was usually a C-D student but I was hyper focused on myself and running. In junior high and high school I run cross country... now that was something I wa good at.

At the age of 19 I came off my medication for many reason and feel into a deep depression for 6 months. I'm now 36 and have handled life fairly well and do still find it hard to keep but not make connections. Maybe it's because easier on myself because I've accepted that I might never had a deep friendship type connection with anyone but I've found ways to be out in public by myself and enjoy it. Like I've good at kinds listening to what is going on around me, yeah a bit ease dropping but why do the lady at the next table speak load enough that people three tables down can hear her. Now, I don't listen to them just because my brain is doing 2-4 things at a time and they just happened into the trap and I don't let then see it.

I usually don't pay other peoples chat any attention and sometimes I just find myself listening. I mostly shy away as I know that I do it and they also seem super fake in my area. The chat they make seems all the same about how people are meant to act social and how someone is wrong because they perfectly happy being closed off from others.

You are who you are and any friendships you make you should make because the person likes you for you. If they don't it's their loss!