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Originally Posted by One More Day
Normally I would say my meds have the same affect on me as they do for you - comfortably wild. I think the issue for me is that, one of my indiscretions is a very good friend who has regular contact with me. Do you think that when we are in a manic state that we must be a lot of 'fun'? Or is it that we are perceived as easy targets? Because this particular friend seems to like to 'restart' things every year or so even though his wife and my husband are aware that lines have been crossed. I always feel used afterwards and that bothers me because I feel like I am victimizing myself which I feel is excusing an inexcusable behaviour.
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Yeah, that makes sense about being an easy target or not. I don't think I've really been a target, because in that state I just seem to get into those situations easily, and i don't think the other people were being predatory. But i have looked back and wondered what they were thinking, and what kind of a stare they were in. The one i wonder about the mist was the guy I cheated on my husband with, which lead to me getting my diagnosis. We worked together at a mental health team, where i was a nurse and he was a social worker. I was pretty drastically different than normal, but he seemed not to notice. But everything was consensual, and i can't expect others to figure that sort of thing out. I just wonder about him, because he was educated about mental illness. Other situations the people would have had no clue, of were going through equally crazy times. I only really regret 2. Now i'm in a relationship, and he worries that i could cheat if i get hypomanic, but he's never seen me in that state. Hopefully it will never be an issue with us.