Every med I've ever been on has taken the best parts of me away - I feel like a zombie - no emotion - cognitive dulling - memory loss - etc.. (not to mention weight gain). I'm weening myself off my meds now (I know, no lectures please!) and I'm looking to see if anyone else manages w/o meds. I've been on a zillion cocktails and each one is worse than the last. I'm open to trying something new down the road but right now I'm just so sick of feeling like I'm trapped inside a lifeless, stupid, fat, body. Currently on (weening off) lithium & abilify.