Hi everyone,
My son, Travis, took own life July 27, 14 years ago. I'm coming up to the anniversary of his death next week. It's been 14 years, and everyone's go on with their lives. I have to to a great extent, but certain dates like next week, holidays, his birthday, are hard. I tried to run from my feelings by joining a few online dating sites. Doing so, for some reason made me sadder, so I canceled them all. With my grief, my bipolar, my sexual abuse issues, and my history of drug and alcohol abuse, I feel like the most messed person in psychcentral. Saturday will be my first day working this week. I've tried to take care of myself. I've worked so many years on myself, sometimes I feel like I don't have a right to still be struggling.