I had a T, her name was Angela, I had seen her for two years before they switched me over to a day program where I no longer could see my T but was given a new counselor I'd meet with for 15 mins once a month.

So I had a break down and had to go to the Psych Ward. I was in day program when this happened, so my current counselor, knowing how close I was with Angela, decides to let her make the final call about me going in patient at the Ward. So we go over there, and Angela and I fall right back into our old rhythm, everything is a lot more open, and honest between us, and you can tell there's a warm bond. It's not like that with my counselor, and I looked over to see her face, which was shocked at how I was. But when I looked again it was just plain jealousy.

I'm assuming it's cause I talk to Angela so freely and don't give much to my new counselor. She's a smart lady so I know she must know that I don't trust her yet, and there's no bond yet after only five months. Five months just can't beat two years.

I don't want her to feel jealous, I know it's more on her than me and her issue, but I feel guilty. Not that I'd ever take my time spent with Angela back or the fact that we are close. Just I feel like I should be taking my new counselors side, but the only side I see and can even think of considering being on is Angela's.