My heart is filled with a great sense of grief today as I begin the early termination phase of my therapy. I don't have any plans to terminate soon but I am starting to cut back on my sessions. This change has brought to me great saddness and a deep feeling of inpending loss that makes me almost sick. I know that it does not have to happen soon, but I know that one day I will have to leave my therapist and it makes me sick and it makes me want to run and scream from the pain of the loss. I can't get it out of my head...I'm scared to death and don't know how I will ever be able to cope with so much pain. I dread the day want to run form it, want to hide from it, but I know I can't. I hate myself for feeling this way, hate myself for learning to love and trust someone so much and knowing all along that someday it would have to end. I thought I was doing so much better, but now I don't know. I fear I can't deal with it. What am I to do.