Sidony thanks for your words and after reading your response I have come to the conclusion that I am doing this to myself! I don't have to end therapy...not evan close to that point yet so why am I feelilng so rotten? I think this whole process has served as a trigger for me and it is really the triggered emotions that have taken over and not actually the fact of cutting back to twice a month for therapy. I feel comfortable with every two weeks! I don't feel comfortable with termination and by Gosh I'm not even going there. This is within my control and having these thoughts are my doing. I've got to stop it and I will. Thanks for your words as they kind of made me see that I do have a choice in this matter and that I need to take control of my obsessive thinking and stop it!