I cant say whether ....your ....treatment provider would think you are horrible for this because i am not you and am not your treatment provider...

that said i can tell you that if this was ...my....treatment provider no they would not think i was horrible.

i can also tell you in.... general.... treatment providers do not think their clients are horrible. they want to help their clients with what ever problems they may have regardless of whether the problem is about a relative or not.

but directly related to you only you and your treatment provider can answer your question.

my suggestion ask them if there was any situation that would make them feel you are a horrible person then they will tell you.